Writing When You Hurt

Tuesday, October 28, 2008 | 0 Comments

Chronic pain redirects your brain. It actually changes the neural pathways and "hardwires" your brain to attend to your pain, even when you aren't experiencing any at that moment.

This means that I now have trouble focusing on tasks that require complex problem-solving, such as writing. At one time, I could write for hours and review multiple resources and then synthesize all that info into a comprehensive piece of work. I can't do that now, which often frustrates me. However, I'm learning to adapt to the changes in my body and brain. Doug has been supportive, encouraging, cajoling, directing, ordering in helping me to face these changes.

Pain level today:
0800 - Level 2. Took 3 valerians, read my email and news until they took effect, and then slept until 1030
1330 - Level 2. Put 2 miles on the elliptical machine.

My Pain Management Plan

Friday, October 24, 2008 | 0 Comments

Having a plan helps me to manage my pain on a daily basis. Often when I would know that I was getting ready to go through a downturn on the cycle, I would become anxious and depressed. So my husband and I came up this one:

Level 1 - Little to no pain. No interference in physical or cognitive skills. No needs for meds. Usually I need 9 hours of solid sleep to maintain a level 1.

Level 2 - Rise in pain often first noticed as the ache in my upper left arm and shoulder. I begin to twitch and stretch my left shoulder - that a big tip-off to my level of discomfort. This starts to happen when I become tired, didn't have enough sleep or haven't be active enough. I can still perform my routine physical and cognitive tasks. I also usually don't feel anxious at this step. My med regime is often valerian with passion flower or ibuprofen. Now is a good time to do extra yoga or walking.

Level 3 - All over pain - in my left shoulder, neck, back of head, between my eyes, behind left or right ear, sharp quick pains in extremities. Cognitive functioning decreases - memory, problem-solving - and so do physical abilities - coordination, balance, fine motor skills. The medications necessary to alleviate the pain at this level add to the mental and physical abilities - Flexeril and Lortab. Both make me drowsy and fuzzy-thinking. At this stage I stop using power tools (not a good idea to handle tools that spin at 6,000 rpm)

Level 4 - High level of pain. Time to take some meds and zone out for a day or two to recuperate. I can do simple tasks like housecleaning, laundry - puttering stuff. I usually can't read at this level but I can listen to audio books.